[ she reminds him so much of rogue that it isn't even funny. reminds him of victor, when things between them weren't so fucked up. he hadn't particularly wanted to care then, for either of them, but hopping on that train and talking rogue into coming back to the school, and feeling a piece of himself die along with his half-brother's grasp on reality, had proven otherwise. ]
[ caring for people has often resulted in them being hurt, but logan knows the thing he worried about most was her dying on him. there's already been so much death in his long life that he doesn't think he could take another. but he has, over and over, from jean to storm to cyclops, to rogue and iceman, to charles xavier never quite making his way to the sunseeker. but he knows that if charles had anything to say right now, he would've said he died in a place much better than a boat on water. he would've died knowing that logan was okay, and that his own purpose in life wasn't shattered when the mutants had perished. ]
[ it's the reason why he felt it was okay to throw himself into that last battle. she'd found her family, just as he had with the x-men, and he knew that to die feeling like he was home was better than anything else. ]
[ he lets out a sigh from his noise, wincing when he shifts as he feels one of the bullets in his chest move. looking at her from the corner of his eye, he tries not to move the side she rests on. everything feels so worn down and sore he wants to fall back and let the grass take him. ]
[ firmly, ] It wouldn't have been you.
[ the story would still end the same, even if the way it'd played out had more of a focus on the little wolverine rather than the bigger one. ]
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[ caring for people has often resulted in them being hurt, but logan knows the thing he worried about most was her dying on him. there's already been so much death in his long life that he doesn't think he could take another. but he has, over and over, from jean to storm to cyclops, to rogue and iceman, to charles xavier never quite making his way to the sunseeker. but he knows that if charles had anything to say right now, he would've said he died in a place much better than a boat on water. he would've died knowing that logan was okay, and that his own purpose in life wasn't shattered when the mutants had perished. ]
[ it's the reason why he felt it was okay to throw himself into that last battle. she'd found her family, just as he had with the x-men, and he knew that to die feeling like he was home was better than anything else. ]
[ he lets out a sigh from his noise, wincing when he shifts as he feels one of the bullets in his chest move. looking at her from the corner of his eye, he tries not to move the side she rests on. everything feels so worn down and sore he wants to fall back and let the grass take him. ]
[ firmly, ] It wouldn't have been you.
[ the story would still end the same, even if the way it'd played out had more of a focus on the little wolverine rather than the bigger one. ]